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Saturday, January 26, 2013

Copycatting!

So my Mom does this thing called A Few of My Favorite Things (AFMFT) on her blog.  I figured I would do the same thing, because I have FAR too much time on my hands now that homework is done. So, without further ado, these are some of my Favorite Pieces of Awesome! (FPA!)

FPA #1:  Swing Dancing!
Let's be real, I love dancing PERIOD, but Swing Dancing is by FAR the most fun thing EVER.
FPA #2: Singing
Yes, I am insanely self-conscious about this, but life is just BETTER when I am able to sing and perform!

FPA #3: The Gospel
The first two are important to my sanity and to my ability to worship the Lord.  This is important for my salvation.  I am SO grateful that I can get going on my mission soon!
I would be the redhead,
FPA #4: Piano
I am NOT that good at this, despite playing for something like 12 years, but hey, I love it.

FPA #5: Weird bipolar Utah weather and the fact that I go to BYU
Why?  Umm.....
Question: ANSWERED.

To quote one of my best friends:  Have a fantabulous day and always smile! :)

Damaged Goods (Book of Mormon 3/14)

My Dad gave me a bit of a talking to the other day.  I completely deserved it.  The gist of what he told me was that not only do I need to listen to my friends--they tend to pick up on me being very not-okay before I do.  Then he told me something that I realized applies to the part of the Book of Mormon I am reading: "the Marine Corps has fined marines for destruction of gov’t property when they have gotten sunburned so bad they could not do their jobs.  A tool that is not fit to do the job for which it is intended is not a tool that gets used."

Well first off, ouch.  Point taken, Dad!  But also, I think that the Lamanites in chapter 55 of Alma could have taken a few cues from the USMC and my Dad!  They allowed themselves to be made useless for the purpose they were assigned: Guarding Nephite prisoners.  (How?  Oh, they did a little something called not following the Word of Wisdom...What?  They didn't have that?  SSSHHHHH! I am making a point!)

How do both these things apply to my life now?  Well, contrast the drunk Lamanites to Captain Moroni's soldiers:  they were not only well prepared but well protected.  Translation:  Right now, it looks like the Lord is telling me "Hon, I love you, but you NEED to slow down! You aren't any good to anyone if you are a stressed mess.  I only had one perfect child, and hate to break it to you, you are not him!"

Just some thoughts rattling around in my poor little pointed head!

The Lord lives, he loves you, and you don't have to be perfect (yet!)

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

SURPRISE!!!! You ARE good Enough (and BoM 2/14)

So, hands up all of you who have ever had the thought that they will never be good enough for ________ (fill in the blank).  "I'll never be skinny enough."  "I'll never be good enough to date _____(insert object of affection's name here.)"  or, most commonly of all: "I'll never be good enough to go to heaven."  This doesn't mean that you're just going to decide to STOP trying, but it does make for an oh-so-fun pity party.  All of you who do not have your hands up by the ceiling at this point are liars and I call you to repentance. (KIDDING!  I've just been dying to say that for the longest time.)

The fact is, that you aren't nearly as hopeless as you think.

When you think of Paul, Alma, Ammon, Aaron, Omner, and Himni what do you think of?  Awesome "I can do it/Come at me bro" type missionaries, right?  Well consider what they all have in common.  They were further down the wickedness scale than any of us are likely to ever be.  They weren't just committing sins, they were actively fighting against Christ!  You can't get much worse than that, right?Well they were ALL completely forgiven, and we can safely assume that they haven't been cast into hellfire for eternity, no?

Then why is it that we (me ESPECIALLY included) refuse to accept the Atonement in our lives?  Alma 36--which I will let you look up on your own--gives a firsthand account of how exactly this can be done.  Literally all that you need to do is turn away from the past and look towards your future with faith and hope.

If that still seems hard, think of it this way:  Christ took upon himself all our sins, yes?  Well that means he assumed responsibility for them as if he himself had done them.  Then, when we are asked to accept the Atonement into our lives, it is as if Christ himself is coming up to us and asking US to forgive HIM for his egregious sins  (though he did not in actuality do anything wrong!)  Who are we to deny forgiveness to one who loves us so much?  By extension, who are WE to deny forgiveness to ourselves?

A major part of getting over a disorder of any type is facing your past and accepting it.  When I was a young teenager, I had a mild eating disorder.  It was a stupid decision and one that my fantastic familia helped me get over fairly quickly, but it left its mark.  I still have days where I just want to stop eating. Throw away all my food and never eat again.  I still look in the mirror and dislike what I see.  I still push myself to the limits of my endurance in an effort to prove to myself, my friends, and the world that I am strong.  That I can go and go and go nonstop whenever and wherever I am needed.

This does not work.  If I do this--and it is still VERY frequent because (shocker!) I'm not perfect--I crash.  Hard.  Every time this happens I have to stop myself in the downward misery spiral and realize that hey, it's OKAY not to be perfect as long as I keep trying and keep repenting!

Christ does not require perfection, he requires honest effort and that we keep moving forward.  And if the devil tries to remind you of your past mistakes, feel free to remind him of his future.  His future is NOT your future, and don't you dare forget it!

You ARE good enough, so BE HAPPY! (That's an order!)


El Senor vive y se amas!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Book of Mormon Post 1 of 14

Hey guys, so this is part of a Book of Mormon class assignment, but I would LOVE it if you would leave a bit of feedback, because I tend to find it hard to share what I personally have learned and (as most of you know) have major self esteem issues.

Anyways, this week I was reading Alma's advice to his son Helaman.  So first off, I have to say, Alma was a really cool dad (though I do feel kinda sorry for his kids.  It's got to be intimidating having a prophet for a father!)  The first verse of this advice is in Alma 36 and it is a promise  not only to Helaman, but to us in our day: "I swear unto you that inasmuch as [we] keep the commandments of the Lord [we] shall prosper in the land."  That is a weighty promise.  It's also one that I wouldn't mind taking advantage of.  I mean, we're told that the Lord is the same yesterday, today, and forever.  If that wasn't the case, God would cease to be God.  What else is to be concluded then, but that this prophetic promise holds true today?

The problem comes in when we try to apply it to our lives.  Not because no one can keep the commandments perfectly (though this is certainly true, the Atonement covers our shortcomings.  There is more to this particular principle, but I'm going to ignore that for now)  The problem comes in when we begin to doubt that the Lord will help us.  This is something I do unconsciously on a regular basis.  Who am I to tell the Lord that he can't do anything?

Just some food for thought, and I don't actually know where I was going with it.   Sorry...I'll try to improve on my thoughts in later posts!

Both the Lord and I are living people who love you lots!  Have a superb day!

Monday, January 7, 2013

Formal Apology and New Years' Resolutions

Because I am a wimp and therefore too chicken to say this to their faces, I would like to apologize to my wonderful, entirely-too-giving, amazing friends.  I am sorry that I am so pathetic when it comes to being cold, I am sorry for scaring you, and I am sorry for being such an idiot.  Please don't hate me forever.  Also; as soon as I earn some money I will pay you guys back for the jackets and gloves.

On to my New Years' Resolution:
Avoid getting hypothermia by listening to my friends the FIRST time around, and try to be a lot less pathetic.

Good?  Good.